yeah i know.. i probably update my journal more than i upload things. :/ but i uploaded something yesterday! so dont complain >>;

Alright, so, I know I didn't know =Inqy entirely too well, but we did speak on occasion and she honored me by watching me back whenever ago. She really was one of my favorite artists on here, not only because of her work but because of how friendly she always was to me. She left me a comment here and there, and featured me at one point when she featured a whole bunch of people, which made me feel so special. I just want to reiterate how much she is going to be missed (RIP), and this brings me to my next point.
Since her death I've been thinking a lot. and thats not necessarily a good thing- I get overly paranoid sometimes, and its just made me worry. She died seemingly out of nowhere, and here I am with my medical baggage and little health quirks. Obviously now I'm getting paranoid that I'm not in the clear yet.

the four year anniversary of my first surgery will be this week, July 14 , so I'm thinking about it more than usual anyways. ( I have a pretty cool self portrait to upload for it, lets see if I can wait until the two days or so to upload it haha. i finished it like 3 or 4 weeks ago. ).

I'm getting my first tattoo a week from tomorrow (the 20th). I'm pretty nervous/excited. not scared, just super nervous. to be fair, i dont do well with needles/pain in general. the hospital made me hypersensitive to them. also, for my first one, i'm bound to be nervous. and its pretty big for what people usually get for their first ones. (not everyone, but most people start small.) i wish i could afford to get it in color. but i think i might just go back another time and get that done. (though i know it wont be the same. coloring over grey shading wont show up the same as coloring over just my skin, and shading WITH colors.)

I'm ready for August. summer school will be over. i'll be past the 4 year mark. ill have gotten my tattoo. and ill be going to NYC. for free. FOR FREEEEE<3 <3 <3 yep. more explanation later~ aaaand real school will be starting. definitely more epic than summer school. i miss everyone. and thesis starts in the fall. eeeeee. so close to a BFA.


more fanart to come. and hopefully more non-fanart.
and pictures of the tattoo, when it happens.